Al Maginnes
Seeing the Brown Shirts
On television they march again, amateur brown shirts,
homegrown Nazis, self-appointed
foot soldiers of apocalypse, sworn to foment terror greater
than what capers in them
on the nights they find their beds sober or wake too suddenly
to recall their memorized cant.
Television is as close as I need to come to their scraped heads
and spittle-red mouths, their uniforms
purchased with dollars saved from low wage jobs, laboring
side by side with the races
they claim to despise, and tailored by hopeless mothers or girlfriends
forbidden to watch “Oprah.”
My brown-skinned daughter points at the television as she points
at everything.
“Idiots,” I say to her. “Dumbasses,” a word I’ll repent when
she repeats it in company.
I can call them names or scorn them; I cannot stop her
from seeing them or hearing
their invective today, but some day when she understands their venom.
I can only hope that when
they gather on some street or corner and raise their voices
that I have taught her something
of how hate roots itself in fear, that it dresses in uniforms and marches,
that it repeats slogans
whose message is always the same—what is different
must be terminated. No exceptions.
Not the black man who allowed some arm weary Nazi low rider
a few minutes’ rest as they stacked
a trailer full of engine parts in hundred-degree weather.
Not the Latino foreman
who bought beer to thank the crew for working late.
And not my daughter who,
by the time she is old enough to read this, I hope will be
more patriotic than I,
liberated from my doubts about a continent gorged and gone slack
on hubris and glory.
Let her uncover the compassion and wisdom I want, knowledge
that pities the spark of fear,
that turns a man insane enough to pull on a uniform
and swear fealty to a regime
defeated and fearful of the girl who has already lost interest
and gone to sleep in my arms.